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first of all, english is not my native language so if I make any mistake or anything sounds weird is bc of that, but ill try to write mostly in english because id like to improve, well making that clear ill begin giving some info about me

im emi, 19 years old, female, native spanish speaker, average height, short hair, love cats, love tea, love desserts. 

thats pretty much about me. 

the idea of writing a digital journal started bc I always wanted to write a journal (by hand, yk) but anytime I tried I just gave up like im never consistent in anything I do. but I think digitally is different bc it is obviously faster to write and I can do it everytime im on the phone or the computer. also I always panic when I have to interact with someone in english so I have to get over that. I like to express myself in any way. I like to write. sometimes I write poetry and maybe ill post some of that here. I have a cat, you can see her in my pfp, her name is Lana and I love her.

these days ive been having horrible sleep habits, thats why im writing this at 4 am. ive been sleeping at 6 - 7 am and waking up at 5 - 6 pm. I recently dropped out of college so yeah you could imagine how ive been feeling. I couldn't even complete a semester. ive always struggled with my motivation, depression, anxiety and stuff like the mayority of people at least at my country where mental health is BAD. but anyways ive been through this before two times in highschool so ive had to graduate with exams and studyng at home. it felt shitty at the moment bc I couldn't graduate with my friends and going to prom and all that stuff you supposed to live once in a lifetime. also I dont go out too much so ill probably stay at my room everyday until I feel like im health and clear enough to come back to college again. meanwhile, im gonna try to keep writing about me and my life.

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